Monday, October 29, 2007

I am so stupid.

I have a secret. For years. Something that I didn't think was a big deal because since I am a single person, it wasn't hurting anyone but me and frankly I was okay with being hurt because I just comforted myself with things and treats and whatever else would help me forget how hurtful I was being to myself. The never ending vicious cycle.

I've decided to share a VERY personal thing in a VERY public forum.

I am in over $50,000 in debt, and I don't even have a mortgage as part of all of that debt. Granted, some of it is vehicle debt, so-called "normal" debt that we all think is necessary, but the rest is stupid Stupid STUPID credit card debt. Ridiculous debt that I have no idea what it was used for (besides buying so-called comfort for me for being hurtful to myself). Again, RIDICULOUS.

This is going to be one of the ways of being accountable - I want to detail my path to financial freedom, and by doing it in such a public way, I feel it will make me accountable to you.

So to everyone out there, wish me luck, pray for me, and please forgive me for being a complete idiot. Now on to getting this monkey off of my back...


Jennifer said...

Let me be the first to say formally that I am so SO proud of you! YOU GO GIRL! This is going to be an amazing journey!

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Sam Blackham said...

This is great!!! As Clate often reminds me, "when performance is measured, performance improves [and] when performance is measured and reported, the rate of improvement accelerates!" It's great to see you face this head on and working to make this change a reality!

I think you are going to see great results. It won't happen overnight, but with this kind of determination, you are going to be successful!!!

JM said...

"Where performance is measured, performance improves. Where performance is measured and reported, performance improves dramatically.
Where performance is measured and reported publicly, performance improves exponentially."

I first learned this principle on my mission. I believe it was President Monson who made this eloquent statement regarding performance and accountability.

I admire your determination and courage to publicly report your performance. There is no doubt in my mind that you will make it Tara!

Bret said...

Wow Tara you are awesome for publicly declaring your indebtedness. That is a huge step to fixing it. My Dad would always tell me that we are all human and all make mistakes, but it's what we do after those mistakes that shows our true character. I am excited for your journey to get out of debt!